Hard Choices Can Feel Lonely

Hard Choices Can Feel Lonely

Being a teenager isn’t always the easiest thing in the world. One of the hardest things I had to do in my teenage years was to choose to say “no” to partying and drinking with my best friend of nine years. I decided to get serious about my relationship with Jesus, and knew I had to make this choice to honor Him. It was difficult because, looking back now, it seemed like we based so much of our relationship on relieving our sadness through partying.

We met in fifth grade and we were inseparable (except when one of us went home from boarding school for the weekend). We made sure each school year we were roommates at school. When we entered high school, we did the same. We shared breakfast, lunch, dinner, and munchies, got into trouble together, and tried to get the same class schedules. We had a lot in common, not just in school, but in our home lives, too. We were both the youngest girl in our families, we both grew up in a traditional hogan, we both had parents that were involved with the Navajo religion. We even both had alcoholic fathers.

With so much shared together, I felt there was potentially a lot to lose telling her I was serving Jesus now.

I felt some doubt about sharing with her and other friends and family members my new life in Christ. It was hard and I sometimes felt alone doing it. But most importantly, I felt even then like it was a crossroads time in my life where I had to “choose this day who I will serve” (Joshua 24:15).

I knew that would be the One Who loved me enough to die in my place, so I could be forgiven and free of the sin that separated me from Him.

I didn’t know it at that time, but those choices I made as a teenager started me on a path where I would find the sweetest purposes for my life. A path that led me to an amazing husband and children…and a path where I finally felt real peace knowing I was honoring the Creator that made and loves me.

I’m so glad that same Creator, then and now, gives me the strength to choose and live for Him.

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